LANDON 911

Maybe if I blog about it, then the flahbacks haunting me will cease.

Monday after work Shane let me sleep until 1200 then he had to go to work. I was still tired, so I put all of the kids down for a nap. While I was trying to put Brenna to sleep, I heard Landon, it was kind of muffled but I decided to give Brenna another minute and then check on Landon. I fell alseep and woke up about a half an hour later and I heard Landon again. Brenna woke up too so I put on a movie for her and then went to get Landon.

He has a blanket that is furry on one side and silky on the other. It was somehow, wrapped tightly around his head. I had to pull hard to get it off. He was inresponsive, lethargic and his eyes were open but rolled back. He was not blue but breathing shallow and grunting. Without the blink of an eye I KNEW, I needed to call an ambulance.

They came fast but it felt like a lifetime. I knew he would survive but I worried that I had made him a vegitable or mentally retarded because of lack of oxygen. The parametics came and he was stable, but limp. They took him straight to the Emergency room.

His eyes opened for the first time while walking into the ER, and he steadilly slowly perked up. Shane gave him a blessing. They kept him in the hopital overnight because his blood sugar was 500. Now my fear was diabetes and the life change that it brings.

Once in the hosptial room, he was my sweet little Landon again. Rolling and rocking all over the bed. In the am his blood sugar was normal and he came home. The diagnosis was "Acute Life-Threatening Event", but the eitiology is unknown. They think that he got stressed, and had a seizure and I found him right after the seizure. Possibly the stress caused his blood sugar to rise, plus diarrhea that night and increased WBC and platelets.

Landon is better but I am haunted by the flashbacks of him whenever I close my eyes and the guilt of knowing that he is that stressed. He was so stressed that his body freaked out. I hope it will lessen over time.

SIMPLE JOYS

Brennas shorts are always sagging, now that she is potty trained, and her tinkerbell panties peep out.

When the boys wake up and happilly play in their beds until I come and get them.

Landons smile that goes from ear to ear.

When my kids sit still long enough to snuggle.

5 minutes of joy when my house is spotless.

That my house is in the shade all day and I dont need an air conditioner.

Gummie bears, by the handful.

When all 3 babies nap at the same time. Rare.

BRENNAS REGRESSON

It is probably my fault but heres the list:

Drinks out of a bottle. Would rather be dehydrated than drink out of a cup.

Sucks on a binki. She had a amazingly easy wean off of the binki when she turned 2, but lately I find her in bed with one in her mouth. She will even hide under he blanket so I cant see it.

Wants to be held all the time. She used to wiggle out of my hands whenever I tried to hold her.

Loves to eat her food with tiny baby spoons. I dont know how it makes it to her mouth.

THEY ARE IDENTICAL

This statement is always made by others with doubt. For SURE they are identical, but they are different. Judge for yourselves. (Please turn the volume on your computer down so that you dont have to suffer through my baby talk :).