LANDON 911

Maybe if I blog about it, then the flahbacks haunting me will cease.

Monday after work Shane let me sleep until 1200 then he had to go to work. I was still tired, so I put all of the kids down for a nap. While I was trying to put Brenna to sleep, I heard Landon, it was kind of muffled but I decided to give Brenna another minute and then check on Landon. I fell alseep and woke up about a half an hour later and I heard Landon again. Brenna woke up too so I put on a movie for her and then went to get Landon.

He has a blanket that is furry on one side and silky on the other. It was somehow, wrapped tightly around his head. I had to pull hard to get it off. He was inresponsive, lethargic and his eyes were open but rolled back. He was not blue but breathing shallow and grunting. Without the blink of an eye I KNEW, I needed to call an ambulance.

They came fast but it felt like a lifetime. I knew he would survive but I worried that I had made him a vegitable or mentally retarded because of lack of oxygen. The parametics came and he was stable, but limp. They took him straight to the Emergency room.

His eyes opened for the first time while walking into the ER, and he steadilly slowly perked up. Shane gave him a blessing. They kept him in the hopital overnight because his blood sugar was 500. Now my fear was diabetes and the life change that it brings.

Once in the hosptial room, he was my sweet little Landon again. Rolling and rocking all over the bed. In the am his blood sugar was normal and he came home. The diagnosis was "Acute Life-Threatening Event", but the eitiology is unknown. They think that he got stressed, and had a seizure and I found him right after the seizure. Possibly the stress caused his blood sugar to rise, plus diarrhea that night and increased WBC and platelets.

Landon is better but I am haunted by the flashbacks of him whenever I close my eyes and the guilt of knowing that he is that stressed. He was so stressed that his body freaked out. I hope it will lessen over time.