Monday, August 31, 2009

OUR STORY


When I was 15 years old I was sent to spend the summer in Oregon with my oldest sister. I was wild and my mom hoped that my sisters example and time away from friends would change my life. I came to Oregon as a "punk" as Shane puts it. Typical teenager, only interested in boys and fun. Shanes family was in my sisters ward. Shanes mom was one of the young womens leaders and a huge influence to me through the summer. It wasnt until alot later that I really go to know Shane. I knew who he was, but he to me was the quiet homeschooled boy in the back that only spoke to add something profound to the lesson. I was impressed with him but had my eye on the more popular boys.

Throught the summer, I morphed into a different person. My sister was a good conversationalist and able to get me to search my soul. Her family read scriptures every night and prayed at meals. I took the challenge in YW/YM to read the Book of Mormon during the summer and by the end...according to Shane...I was different. The end of the summer came and my mom and sister asked me if I wanted to stay a year for school. The first semester I went to the public school and then the second semester I did not.

I was reading my scriptures and I had the thought that I needed to pray about going to PHA - the "homeschool" Shane went to. I did and got an answer to go there. I felt so strongly that I cried all night when my sister refused and even moved in with a family in the ward in order to go there. I loved the public school and there was no reason that I did not want to go back. All my friends were there and I knew noone at PHA, except the ackward boy in the back of Sunday school.

When I was crying, Shane called me on the phone and we had our first conversation. He or his mom picked me up everyday for school, evethough Shane had allready graduated. We became good friends. The next summer I came to visit Oregon, and since my sister had other family in town, I stayed with Shanes family. Josh even called me his sister.

The summer Shane left on his mission he flew me up for the week before he left. Gave no hint of liking me. I knew that he was a good boy and did not want to write someone on his mission, so I figured I was either a "sister" or a prospect for the future. I spent the first year of college thinking that he was just 2 hours south of where I lived in Arizona. He taught my cousins missionary lessons in Tucson. All of my boyfriends knew that "Shane" was coming home from his mission soon.

I knew the general time he was coming home from his mission and waited and schemed how I could contact him. Instead he called me. He wanted me to come visit Oregon. I said I was working and going to start Nursing school soon and broke. He said he had a little money and would come down to Arizona to visit. I said, "Great we can tour your mission", unsure of the real reason he would come all that way just for me.

He went to Lake Powell for a few weeks on a family vacation and then came to visit. While he was on vacation I called his house and his aunt Donna answered. She said that Shane was really excited to come and visit. YIKES!!! I got all of these visions in my head of being swept off my feet, and began picking out colors for our wedding.

Shane came and we drove to Tucson. I thought he was everything that I dreamed. I wanted to be close to him and kiss him, but... whenever I got even slightly close he moved away. To top it off, on the way to Tucson he explained that on vacation he kind of started dating a mutual friend that went also. I died inside. Okay, why the heck did he come.

I made the most of the weekend. We enjoyed and had a blast. The last night as we played cards, he said something about how charming he is. I said that I had not seen that side of him. He said that I probably would not. That opened up the conversation and that night I went to bed heart broken.

The next day on the way to the airport we stopped and watched airplanes at the top of a mountain near ASU. He held me, and said that he did not expect to like me so much, and that I ruined eveerything. Then he left. He said he would call me the next day. I was a wreck until he called. What if he said yes? What if he said no?

He finally called and said that he wanted to have a relationship with me. I said, "Oh say it again". He flew down a few weeks later, and we drove to Oregon in my packed car, where he had a roomate and apartment waiting. I spent the next few months in Oregon ackwardly beginning dating while everyone around us treated us like we were engaged.

The time came for me to stay in Oregon or go back to Arizona and start Nursing school. He sent me home. I died again. But a week later he had quit his job and moved to Arizona to be with me.

A few months later we were married. The rest is happily ever after.

MY = I


Brenna learned how to talk from her cousin Tucker that is 9 months older. Right now his I's = My's. "My want that toy". Brenna speaks the same way now. I have been trying to help her talk correctly but it is not sinking in:

Brenna: "My want it" (her pink hat)
Mom: "Brenna say, 'I want it'"
Brenna: "You want it?"
Mom: "No Brenna (in a higher tone this time) say, 'I want it'"
Brenna: "No its my hat"
Mom: "Yes, it is your hat, but dont say 'My want it' say 'I want it'"
Brenna: "You want it? Okay here you go mama"

Friday, August 28, 2009

Thursday, August 27, 2009

BOWL OF LEMONS

It may appear to be just a bowl of lemons that I use as a center piece on my table... but really it is 30 minutes of freedom. No matter how hard they are crying, the bowl of lemons makes everything better and they play, play, play. I only bring it out in cases of emergency, so they dont get bored with it.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

BABY HUNGRY


There is a reason that my post is called "Battling Insanity":) I have had off and on baby hunger since "the brothers" were about 4 months old. Ridiculous, I know. I held a newer baby on Sunday during Relief Society and since then cant get it off my mind. But from experience, in a few days I will be in the "3 is ENOUGH" stage.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

GOT TO LAUGH...


OR ELSE ID CRY!

...when Brenna comes back from the bathroom and her favorite game is running away from me when I try to put her pants back on. Even if she had allready do it 6 times that day, it is still her favorite game.

...now that "the brothers" are mobile, they pick on eachother. One pulls the others ear or kicks him and the victim cries. This is a continuous situation. I move them but they find eachoether again.

..."the brothers" cry whenever I leave the room.

...that whenever I find a momment to close my eyes Brenna wakes me up just for fun.

...that my "alone time" is running errands, but only one per outing at a time and only while the babies are sleeping.

...when Brenna cries to be held when I allready have a carseat in each hand, and a bag on each shoulder.

...when I try to put the kids to bed for some time with my prince and it takes a hour until they calm down enough to relax.

...when Brenna gets out every toy that I just put away.

...that Landon thinks he can crawl in the tub.

...that I change a million diapers a day, holding down the baby with one leg to keep them from rolling away.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

NO SHOWERING ALONE


My showering routine is: Set the boys on the floor in front of the shower with toys. Jump in just long enough to wash my hair. Put in the plug and put it from shower to bath. And finish up with Brenna in the bath with me. How we both fit? It is tight.

This has been working for us for the past few months. But... the other day Jackson was screaming and crying so hard. I could not fiqure out what was wrong. So I striped him down and added him to the tub with us. THAT was what he wanted. I dont know if all four of us will fit each time. I am going to have to fiqure out another way to shower.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

MEETING MILESTONES

Maybe it is because they are 2 months behind developmentally, but I want my babies to meet their milestones early. They so far are a little behind, even for 7 month olds. And also, since they are twins, I quess I expect them to do everything at the same time. Jackson was by far the first one rolling over and to get teeth. Landon is crawling all over the house and even sitting from a crawl. Jackson took a break from rolling but now has begun again. Jackson dose not like his belly and looks alot like the humans on "Walle" if they fall off their chairs. They both sat at the same time.

Friday, August 7, 2009